A 2 Year Funk

I've been in a funk for 2 years. Ever since I decided not to pursue my MA at NYU. I have gone way off track. It is finally catching up to me. The boy once again is the tipping point. I use to be cool and people wanted to hang out with me. I don't think that about myself anymore. I'm not someone I even want to hang out with at the moment. Which sucks because for the next two months I have my own place and this is kind of making it obvious how much I don't like myself at the moment. I'm working on it and thankfully marathon training has started. I just need to get out but am so stuck that I can't even figure out how to do that.